Chrysalis

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There are days in which no matter what I say…

It comes out wrong.
No matter what I write…
It takes a turn for the worse..
It’s days like these that i’m reminded

as I pick up my pen to try again,

Of one tiny fact.

All I ever have to do is the best that I can.

It doesn’t matter if someone else thinks I can do better.
They do not live in my head.
They do not live in this body.
It’s simple folks.
Pick up your pen and try again.

 

Fishing and other thoughts on writing!

I love fishing in the summer. If the day is warm, or even slightly sunny. You’ll often find me on the river bank. Like a chubby white dwarf in Neoprene. Dreaming of dragons and other fun story ideas as I cast away.

There is something peaceful of the simple repetitiveness of fishing. I can stay on the river bank for hours, just fishing/dreaming away.

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Writing in some ways reminds me of a rushing river. When it’s good it flows downstream in a beautiful bubbling pattern, meandering it’s way down a mysterious trail beckoning me to follow.

Then I hit a setback, (a  snag) and I’m suddenly seven years old again. Stomping my feet, angry at the world because  my fishing pole is way to big for my little hands and I can never find help when I need it.

We hit snags in real life to, not just on torn branches on the opposite bank.

Like when we go to the grocery store and realized we’ve overspent. Hours later, we’re back at home furiously crunching numbers trying to figure out how to balance our checkbook/bank card and worse, how did it get all messed up in the first place?

When I hit snags while writing, I usually have the worst self pity break down ever. (ask my husband, he will agree). I stomp, I shout, I cry, I get frustrated, irritated, opinionated and more. All because i’ve struck a wall i’ve never seen before. One that looks impenetrable and i’m unable to break through it, or can I?

Sometimes it takes research. Sometimes, a little more applications or just looking at my problem in a different light.

If your facing your wall today, your snag and desperately pulling on that line trying to come up with your solution, then take a step back.. and breath. I might be there in that same spot, breathing deep with you.

I firmly believe there is a solution to every problem but it might take a while for us to figure it out. Tomorrow or the next day your solution might come to you. Perhaps, it will take a few more days or a month, but if you believe and keep trying, you’ll get there.

We both will.

 

Anything but the dishes

 

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This is the practical side to writing.

 

  1. Show and Tell
  2. Death to Adverbs
  3. Everyone’s right and your way is wrong.

 

The remembering of details can seem overwhelming. What to remember when writing an article, short story, or even long story. Who is right, when your reading a critique.

 

There is another side to publishing that most people forget.

 

It’s that long and lonely path to publication. It’s where the majority of us quit. It’s confusing, frustrating and at times makes you heart sick.

 

Skydreamer took longer than I estimated to write.

 

Beta readers quit.

 

Some continued and then… offered no suggestions.

 

Editors have cost me much more than I’ve budgeted and given back so much less than they could have. More than one has quit.

 

I often feel as if I’m on a road full of pebbles, barefoot, inching my way towards progress.

 

There are days when it seems that everyone around me is living my dream and I take great courage in that thought because I have a life that has never been strewn with flowers. I will always need that one extra step, I will always feel as if everyone else has jumped over my hurdle with a good two foot clearance to spare.

 

I am still on my road to progress. Skydreamer is at yet another editor. Maybe it will work, maybe it will take another ten tries. My footsteps are always a little to the left of everyone else’s, a little further apart. My goals are the same, my struggles are the same and I’ll get there. Maybe a little slower than everyone else but the journey will be just as rewarding.

 

To those who are walking side by side with me. Those of you who have hurdles you feel will never be crossed, this post is for you.  We can do it. I firmly believe that we can do anything we put our minds to, except perhaps the dishes but even that’s okay, because we’re writer’s. We had better something better planned for today anyway!

 

 

 

Time

Writing a book takes a lot of time.

Time, that I could be spending, doing the dishes, the laundry or even cleaning the house.

Time, I take away from my husband, my son, my friends.

I gave up TV, Video games, reading, and I had a book a day habit.  (Yes, you read that right!)

I gave it up to live in a land created by my imagination, to soar in the sky with imaginary dragons or throw fireballs at clouds.

Time is a finite space, and we only have so much of it. Make time, just a little bit today, to do something you want to. Whether it’s vacuuming the carpets, doing the dishes, or learning photography. Make sure  you’ve done something today that you genuinely want to do.

If my life ends today, I’ll be grateful. For friends who have come into my life, for husbands who allows me dream at the tips of my fingertips and for time, time to do so many wonderful and imaginary things in life.

What are you making time for?